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My friend David is dead. He killed himself. He was only 22. He was… - when you don't know what to do...
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tashabear
tashabear
My friend David is dead. He killed himself. He was only 22.

He was a student, a soldier, an amazingly talented artist, a furry fan, a gamer, a snowboarder, an animal lover. He was funny, and loving, and smarter than he gave himself credit for. He was a houseguest several times here with me and Wolfie, and we miss him.

I don't know if there's anything we could have done for him. He emailed me and several other people a letter that hit me like a ton of bricks, because it was essentially a suicide note. In it, he said he was sorry, and he asked for our forgiveness. It's hard, but yeah, David. I forgive you.

At least now he's free, and hopefully with his father. We love him -- I won't say loved, because death doesn't stop us loving him. He will always be with us, and in my heart, I'll always see him smiling his amazing, open, loving smile. I'll always miss him.

i feel: sad sad

13 trips or shoot the rapids
Comments
From: ex_misschili604 Date: May 1st, 2004 11:00 pm (UTC) (base camp)
God, I'm so sorry.
frostyw From: frostyw Date: May 2nd, 2004 12:36 am (UTC) (base camp)
Oh, dear Lord, that's terrible news, but at least you have memories you'll treasure. I'm so sorry to hear this. :(
goingdriftless From: goingdriftless Date: May 2nd, 2004 03:10 am (UTC) (base camp)
My God, that's awful. I am so sorry.
Take care of yourself.... I'll be thinking of you.
skorzy From: skorzy Date: May 2nd, 2004 04:47 am (UTC) (base camp)
Read about this in Wolfie's journal first. Jeeze.. I'm so sorry. :( I can almost understand the feeling of powerlessness to help someone in your situation.

*hug* Thoughts are with you.
cellio From: cellio Date: May 2nd, 2004 05:12 am (UTC) (base camp)
Ouch. I'm so sorry for your loss.
sandthistle From: sandthistle Date: May 2nd, 2004 05:52 am (UTC) (base camp)
Tasha, Tasha, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I had a student attempt suicide this Spring and I got her suicide note. Luckily we got her found in time and she's getting the help she needs... I am so so sorry.

Keeping you and Wolfie in my thoughts...
From: reasdream Date: May 2nd, 2004 06:15 am (UTC) (base camp)
*hugs both of you*
sympolarbear From: sympolarbear Date: May 2nd, 2004 08:03 am (UTC) (base camp)
*gives a hug* words just fail me on this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
ladymorgaine From: ladymorgaine Date: May 2nd, 2004 08:59 am (UTC) (base camp)
I'm so sorry to hear this. The death of a friend is never easy, and to lose one this way is only that much harder to bear.

Sending you hugs, compassion and strength to get through this. I wish I knew what else to say, but of course there are no words. You are in my thoughts.
emmacrew From: emmacrew Date: May 2nd, 2004 09:02 am (UTC) (base camp)
*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear of this. The only suicide in my life was my then sort-of-boyfriend's mom (who I only sort of knew) and the repercussions were fairly awful. It must be so much more so when it's someone you love. Take care of you and Wolfie, and hold on to the loving memories.
From: nutter4 Date: May 2nd, 2004 09:23 am (UTC) (base camp)
Ye gods. So young. My thoughts are with you and Wolfie... nothing else I can say.

*hugs*
was1 From: was1 Date: May 2nd, 2004 10:44 am (UTC) (base camp)
Oh wow. I don't know what to say. I'm sorry to hear this. I'm sorry for your loss of your friend.
beerhorse From: beerhorse Date: May 3rd, 2004 04:39 am (UTC) (base camp)
Damn.... *hugs* I'm so sorry...
13 trips or shoot the rapids