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this afternoon was better than, say, 3am...
...and tomorrow will be better still. It still hurts; I keep expecting David to call and tell us it was all a horrible, horrible mistake. I log into Taps (furry-themed MUCK), and see all the things I made for his character in my area, where they ended up by accident, and I want to give them back to him. But his character is forever asleep, until he gets toaded for lack of activity. One more little reminder gone. I've known him as long as I've known Wolfie almost. Wolfie introduced me to Taps, and I met Griz (David's character) my first time on the MUCK. The two of them have been constants in my life for three years -- Wolfie almost daily, David much less so, but always in my thoughts. No more "next visits." Bugger, bugger, bugger...

But we went out today, and were social. A little quiet, and pretty much always together, but we were among friends. There was a fighter practice at a friend's house, and we got to meet new people from Stonemarche, and schmooze, and then eat mass quantities of dead animal flesh -- steak tips that I bought at Thwaite's Market, which we then marinated in Kikkoman's Roasted Garlic Teriyaki Marinade, and a couple of Thwaite's pork bangers (big-ass sausages). It was so good.

We gave Duchess Anna and Mistress Eleanor bites of one of the bangers, and they really liked it; we may be having them at Panteria (I have to go check the prices). I've been trying to think what would go good with them. I'm thinking maybe stewed apples, or baked beans, if Wolfie will eat them. (He likes the stewed apples idea, though.) I'm even considering trying a sort of casserole, with bangers and then cut-up apples, a little water, a squeeze or two of lemon, some sugar, some cinnamon, a touch of nutmeg (he wants to add a bit of sage, but I don't know how that would go with the apples and sugar), and bake it all in the oven, like baking a pie. Yummy yum. Thwaite's makes an apple and pork sausage, too; can't wait to try them! I love having a good butcher shop nearby.

Wolfie's staying home tomorrow. He still hasn't processed this fully. So we'll stay close tomorrow, and do at least one positive thing: go get our marriage license. David was so excited about our wedding, and the possibility of us having kids, and it breaks my heart that he won't be around to share our joy and be an "uncle" if we have children. But I know he'll see us. It's the oddest thing -- this whole experience has got me broody, and it's been years since I've been really broody. It's as if one life has gone out of the world and I want to bring in a new one to fill that space. I mentioned it to Wolfie today, and he understood, and agreed with me that if we decide have a child, and it's a boy, his middle name will be David (we're still discussing first names), since David Dooley is just a bit too alliterative for our tastes. I think David would have agreed. :-) (Heck, I still might use David as a middle name, even if it's a girl. Stranger things have happened.)

i feel: blank blank

8 trips or shoot the rapids
emmacrew From: emmacrew Date: May 2nd, 2004 11:31 pm (UTC) (base camp)
My first college roomie was named Davida...

Oh, and touch of sage + apples = yum.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: May 2nd, 2004 11:43 pm (UTC) (base camp)
Which syllable is accented in Davida?

And thanks for the tip about sage -- I know very little about how herbs taste. :-) If I work out a good recipe, I'll post it.
emmacrew From: emmacrew Date: May 2nd, 2004 11:45 pm (UTC) (base camp)
It was duh-VEE-duh, I think.

I have a favorite recipe for apples and onions cooked together with a few other things until they become a tasty glop, which is excellent with pig. Let me know if you're interested.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: May 3rd, 2004 12:11 am (UTC) (base camp)
I like that pronunciation. Still think it'd be better as a middle name, but it's food for thought.

And speaking of food... mmm. Tasty glop. We like tasty glop. My theory is, the less I have to chew, the longer I'll live, because I can spend that valuable energy on other things, like making more tasty glop.

So yeah, I'd be interested. Hit me.
sandthistle From: sandthistle Date: May 3rd, 2004 12:38 am (UTC) (base camp)
Tasty glop good. David is an excellent name. Davida as well. Alliteration is a little freaky. Sage + apples = nifty flavor and way good with pig.

Still thinking good thoughts your way...
tashabear From: tashabear Date: May 3rd, 2004 01:09 am (UTC) (base camp)
Alliteration is why I'm going to be Diane Sawyer Dooley instead of plain ol' Diane Dooley. I need a couple of syllables to break up the cuteness, and if three names was good enough for Marion Zimmer Bradley, by gum, they're good enough for me! ;-)

(Thank you. I wish I could hug you guys, I really do.)
sandthistle From: sandthistle Date: May 3rd, 2004 01:30 am (UTC) (base camp)

I'm off to bed, finally. You should sleep! Tomorrow will look better with enough sleep.

*standing down from maternal soapbox*

{{{more hugs}}}
tashabear From: tashabear Date: May 3rd, 2004 01:36 am (UTC) (base camp)
Ma'am, yes ma'am. (Though if it makes you feel any better, when unemployed this tends to be my usual bedtime.)
8 trips or shoot the rapids