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tashabear
tashabear
damifino
I have this strange, tight, hectic feeling in my chest, as if I'm going to cry or something any moment.  I'm stuck in immobility and apathy -- I feel like there is something wildly exciting I should be doing, but I don't know what it is.  I'm caught between wanting to do something and not wanting to do anything... and so I do very very little.  I have lists and lists of things to do... and here I sit.

Part of this might be a reaction to Wolfie's new work schedule.  It's strange to be home alone like this.  When he worked nights, I'd go to be shortly after he left, and get up when he came home.  When I got home from work, he was up.  But this -- this is weird.  I can't remember the last time we were apart for fully 12 hours a day.  We both knew it would be an adjustment; I don't think we realized how much of one.  I know I didn't.

Maybe this is just loneliness.  I dunno.  I'll give it a week and see.

i feel: lonely lonely

3 trips or shoot the rapids
Comments
goingdriftless From: goingdriftless Date: September 22nd, 2004 03:16 pm (UTC) (base camp)
*big hug* Whatever it is, I hope that tomorrow's at least a little better!
tashabear From: tashabear Date: September 22nd, 2004 04:06 pm (UTC) (base camp)
It's weird, like I'm stuck on the brink between hysterical laughter and hysterical crying... but neither seems particularly appealing. Very strange.

I'll be okay. Thanks though! ;-)
sandthistle From: sandthistle Date: September 23rd, 2004 01:48 am (UTC) (base camp)
*hugs* Adjustment to things like this is difficult. *more hugs*
3 trips or shoot the rapids