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tashabear
tashabear
broken record
I came home from work early with a migraine. They took the receptionist off phones and brought her into the back to do some stuff for one of the other paralegals, but they had no place for her to sit and no phone for her to use, and that also put for of us in a room that's criminally undersized with three of us in it.

I cried three times on the way home and once or twice after I got here. We had to go to Michael's (craft store) and WalMart, where we picked up some art supplies for Wolfie (I turned him on to etching glass.... muahaha... and he got some other stuff too) and I need soap and stuff at WallyWorld. I was walking around WalMart like a fucking zombie. And here I am, at 2:45m, smacked with insomnia again. I hope I can get to sleep when I finally go to bed. Probably will, but it'll be hard to go back in the morning.

All I want is to have a quiet corner where people will leave me alone to do my work. Some interaction is nice, but the boys that come into our room just set my teeth on edge. It's like the sound of their own thoughts is too banal to deal with, even for them, so they have to run their mouths just to drown it out. And they're soooo NASAL! I hate city folks... well, these city folks. They're so shallow, and they have to be entertained. I'd rather sit at home and make something than go out and watch other people doing stuff.

I'm tempted to go tell the head paralegal that I'll go sit out at the desk and answer the phones. Give me a headset, and I can do that and my work, too. (They so don't understand what they have in me.) Anything to get out of that fucking "monkey room." I swear, it's making me sick. It would mean that they don't need the temp they brought in to answer the phones, but better her than me, I guess. I'm just going insane in there... I'd say "going slowly insane," but I think the pace has picked up in the last few days. If this keeps up, I will snap.

i feel: exhausted exhausted

2 trips or shoot the rapids
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skorzy From: skorzy Date: November 21st, 2002 07:59 am (UTC) (base camp)
Have you tried melatonin to combat the insomnia? It works very very well. Next time I see you, I'll give you a few to try (yay! I'm a pill pusher!). More 'herbal' treatments work with some people, like Valerian root and Kava Kava (both are very mild with me).

Sometimes my insomnia is so bad not even antihistamines work..thankfully, that's rare.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: November 21st, 2002 08:29 pm (UTC) (base camp)
I haven't tried the melatonin, but I have tried Kava Kava. Sometimes it hits me like a ton of bricks, and sometimes it doesn't do anything.

Sugar actually works as a soporific for me... I can spike and crash my blood sugar fast enough to put me right out. Probably not the healthiest thing I could do for myself, but when you're desperate to get to sleep and have no antihistamines, but you do have a box of Oreos... well... you do what you gotta do.
2 trips or shoot the rapids