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inner truth
I figured out the real reason for my underlying panicky feeling.

See, I've been engaged twice before. The first time, we broke up three weeks before the wedding, the second time it was three months. And here I am again, getting ready to make that step, and deathly afraid that it's not going to happen this time either. The last time was hard enough; losing Wolfie would be devastating.

However, my rational side is going to take my emotional side out for a little tea and sympathy and explain to it that Wolfie is not either of my ex-fiances, and that Everything Will Be Fine, and that we really will get married and live Happily Ever After. And if that doesn't work, I'm sure that my rational side will beat my emotional side to a pulp in an alley somewhere until it understands.

(Actually, discovering the true reason for irrational emotional reactions almost always helps me deal, so it's pretty much a non-issue now. Besides, my family is stoked.

i feel: relieved relieved

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