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tashabear
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I'm in an absolutely foul mood, and as it's 3:30 in the morning, there's no one I can talk to about it -- all the sane people are asleep.

I'm not adapting well to changes at work. They persist in using outdated methods of passing information that I'm just not comfortable with. I'm torn between enjoying the intimacy of a super-small startup and missing the anonymity of a large corporation. I can't be as proactive as I want to be, so the control freak in me is throwing up her hands and saying fuckit, and as a result I just want to be left alone to knit. No one is organized the way I think they should be, least of all the boss, and it's driving me insane.

And I don't really have a desk. That really drives me batty, not having a desk. My insecurities are floating to the top, and it's just Ugly. I feel very alone right now, and very lonely, and I wanna go home.

i feel: lonely lonely

12 trips or shoot the rapids
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perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 12:41 am (UTC) (base camp)
sucks you don't have AOL IM pointers ;)

i'm just awake researching knitting machines. again.

stupid market.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 12:48 am (UTC) (base camp)
Give me a couple of minutes. I'll get AIM.
perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 12:49 am (UTC) (base camp)
bwa ha ha
perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 01:03 am (UTC) (base camp)
were you go to? we also do irc.

btw, i have to remind myself to call those fibre loft people and find out about the weaving class again, and see if they carry knitting machines/stuff.

such a confusing issue :)
tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 01:06 am (UTC) (base camp)
I opened AIM Express -- username FridayJ29.

AFAIK, Fiber Loft no gots da knittin' machines.
perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 01:09 am (UTC) (base camp)
past tense. it must've crashed, you aren't there now.

i still need to call them about weaving class.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 01:16 am (UTC) (base camp)
Try again... what's yours?
perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 01:15 am (UTC) (base camp)
you came up and immediately went down.

aim express no love you. install real client?

tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 01:16 am (UTC) (base camp)
Download hung. Gr.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 01:33 am (UTC) (base camp)
Installed real client. Try again?
perspicuity From: perspicuity Date: August 19th, 2003 01:35 am (UTC) (base camp)
i see you, i talk at you, you aren't answering. hah.

are your settings correct? are you getting a message that requires you to click yes? if you are connected, it's not a firewall issue. hmmm.
tashabear From: tashabear Date: August 19th, 2003 12:50 am (UTC) (base camp)
Fridayj29 -- I'm up.
12 trips or shoot the rapids